Appearance of an unwanted ex..

For the last two days I have been communicating with my ex. For some reason I thought us getting in touch with each other would be a good thing. Needless to say, I was very wrong. since talking to him all the good memories have been relived, however so has all the negative memories. In our relationship there was more negative thing remembering things that I do not want to remember or relive. We argue consistently. So why am I talking to this man? A man who has hurt me far beyond anyone or anything. I thought I was missing something. I thought with him it would bring me peace, not even realizing peace is something I only have when I'm without him. Yes, I was over him. So why did I think I needed him back in my life? God is an awesome god and sometimes he gives you answers to questions happening than positive and that is why we broke up. So for us to talk its making me very uneasy. I find myself reliving and faster than you would ever think. I am so glad that he has been with me to make this decision and with him it is easier than I thought. This is why I think I am a writer.