Betrayal

The secrets of betrayal

stings at my heart

we grew apart

yet the pain sits in the crack of my heart

sometimes I sit and stare out the window

looking for your favorite shoes to hit the pavement

listening for that voice that I grew to love

man

I shoulda hugged you more

I was small but I should have

wrapped my arms around your waist

and let you know I adored you

I mean

you were my favorite person in this world

how do I let go?

After 10 long years later

I'm still hurting

waiting for your smile

waiting for you to call my name

waiting to sit at the food of your bed

and watch TV with you

you were the only one to understand me

how could you leave me?

Why didn't you say goodbye?

You could have warned me

prepared me to live the rest of my life without you

I cant find closure

I go to reach for you in the sky

sometimes I feel your hand

then I snap back into reality

it wont even you

I feel bamboozled

hoodwinked and confused

did you expect me to live without you?

Well what if I don't want to?

I want to build a time capsule

I swear I would go back to 99

and save you

save me from this betrayal...