I understand me were never meant to be more than friends

It plays over and over in my head

like a bad memory

I rather be strong and move on

but I cant so just forgive me

My apology is just as empty as u left me

Excuse me but animosity feels me like cholesterol

in a blocked artery

Like a friend I thought u loved me

Aint it funny

how with time people change

like a rapper with new money

So tell me

how do you feel about this?

Am I on your enemy list

that you cross my name off of mad burn lists

Shit you're not on mine

It's like no matter how hard I try to be mad

I play the situation in my head

like a tape that I could just rewind

and if i rewind it enough

maybe O could prevent the future

The hurt that a niggah I fukked with so hard

wants nothing to do with me

like damn

What bout the millions of minutes hours and days

that's supposed to turn into years

where we kuld sit back and look at our kids

they play side by side as we catch up on our years

There's fear

fear that you never really cared

but I refuse to believe it

The more I talk about it

the most I want to release it

Tell me our friendship did mean shit

I get it

we were never meant to be more than friends

but yah dick, I didn't need it

Money I already see it

I wanted nothing more from you but for you to just be there

When friends was doing me dirty

you were one text a away

In my head you spoke reason

This is is the ultimate betrayal like treason

and I'm just not feeling your reason

Feeling why I have to talk to you through Myspace messages

do you wonder how I'm doing?

While I'm tossing and turning in my bed at night

do you wonder who am I perusing?

when I can't seem to think straight

with the thought of you in the back of my head

are u thinking about me to?

I thought shit like that is too good to be true

I needed you

Needed you like the air I breath through my nostrils

Sometimes I feel lost without you

but then I snap back to reality

and realize everything Ive done I did it without you

I mean I forgive you

Although the words I'm sorry never crossed yah lips

and yet still

O reminisce on the subtle touches to my hips

the sweet words that left from yah lips

and the times I thought about how good to me he is

I'm not bitter

I'm actually very happy but that you would never see

do you ask about me?

Like when your sitting around the house

do you reach to your phone and almost text me

I used to , so I had to delete your memory

I still stroll through my phone looking for your name

then I remember, damn he don't fukk with me

I can dig it

I mean I thank you for this inspiration

I'm back to the old me

back to not caring about nothing and nobody..

that's who I should be right...

hope you didn't agree...

hope after reading this you wont hit delete

yet simmer upon this and feel these words

that's coming from deep within me

and if not

I understand.....

I understand me were never meant to be more than friends