Agape Love

on lonely days I looked out the window

silent tears soaking the keyboard

as I look for your face on a facebook page

talking to yah picture as if you were here

kinda yelling

words muffling through the frog in my throat

shaking my head because I'm remembering

flickers of sunlight as the sun rays hit my face

looking at the clock seven am

and you’re on my mind

constant nights of holding you in my arms

sweet kisses to the nape of yah neck

tracing yah spinal cord down yah back

with the smallest wettest kisses

you always jumped when I reached the small of yah back

hurt betrayal confusion

love slowly turning into something I don’t even recognize

looking in the mirror at a heart sitting on my rib cage

cracked in the middle from where you slit it

they say love has a way of changing you

deep into my body a racing with blood of hate

and somehow I wont let it get the best of me

so I cut myself

trying to release the animosity in my soul

the only thing that pours out

are all the broken promises

all the dreams and aspirations

all the days I feel asleep with you on my mind

and when I woke up you was on it to

I loved you

as in ed not anymore and to have loved you

is to have learned

that real love

agape genuine love

does not hurt!