I Killed You

niggah yeah I meant to shoot you

what you thought it was an accident?

oh I was supposed to forgive the past events?

like when you made your pit bull bite my infant

I should have killed you then

but no I wanted to be a lover not a fighter

so I let you convince me to drive to the hospital

we walked in hand and hand

right then I should have took the sharpest weapon I seen and stabbed you

but again I wanted to be your friend

so I stood there gazing in your eyes like you were a man

what

yeah you heard right

you aint no man

NIGGAH YOU PUT YOUR HANDS ON ME

you slapped me so hard I fell to my knees

and you didn’t stop there

you unzipped your pants

stuffed your “manhood” in my mouth

I couldn't breath

I couldn't scream

my toddler watched at the top of the stairs

as his sperm donor sodomized me

and still I forgave you

testified for you at trial

so they wouldn’t hold you

what

NO I'M NOT DONE

now you sit and listen

remember when you tied my hands behind my back

did what you wanted to my daughter

when I closed my eyes

you went harder

all I could hear was her screams

a precious voice screaming for her mommie

but that didn’t send a trigger in my head

that night we got in bed together

you told me you loved me

sitting on top of me as sweat dripped from your forehead

my babies slept in their beds

that night I dreamed

must have been dreaming to hard

I didn’t hear you leave

I didn’t hear your pull my babies out their beds

pull off in the car and leave

but when I work up

the cops was at my door

and you were in the back seat

and I knew something it was wrong

you wore that trifling ass smirk on your face like always

I HATE YOU

can you hear me

I HATE YOU

you took my life from me

ALL I EVER DID WAS LOVE YOU..

(whispers) all I ever did was love you

look at you now

sitting there lying in a coffin

HA HA I KILLED YOU

I

KILLED

YOU

should have done it sooner