I Got A Lot of Love to Give

I got a lot of love to give. I can help it I'm a Pisces. Not only am I a Pisces but my father never knew me. I never knew my father. He has been gone all of my life; then after 17 years he tries to waltz back in. So, I need to give away some of this love. The only bad thing is, I'm looking for love in all the wrong places. How many of you are one of those type people who See's domestic violence and goes "that would never be me". I raised bout hands; yeah, I said it but guess what it happened. I gave him my all, he hit me, called me out my name and let his friends and family disrespect me. He called it love, he still calls it love. When all it was a lie and a front because that right there was not love. He was my first, go figure. I been with one other man after him. So yeah I admit it I'm 20 and only been with two men, probably only had sex 50 times in my life. I was with my ex for a year and the other man was a one night stand. So IMO not a hoe but I am perceived as one. Or if I talk about how I am sexually frustrated cause I haven't had sex since December then I seem thirsty. Nope I just have a lot of love to give. I have a lot of kisses to give I have the desire to surrender my body to a man. but I'm not thirsty I just have a lot of love to give. No everyone is not worthy but it seems I always want what I cant have.It's fine, I talked to my aunt and she said it simple you never need a man to make you feel like a woman. I used to blame this desire on my father cause he should have loved me and although he didn't he is forgiven but I still have a lot of love to give. Irma just writer about it, and this is why I think I am a writer.